did all the old times between us changed or?
when i looked into your eye, i dont feel the love at all. why?
i felt so lost. i really dont know how to rant out how i feel.
aint i supposed to be happy?
i just did my nails and today's our anniversary, im supposed to be happy.
i dont feel secured at all.
why.
Loved 10:09 PM
today's the 21st month that we are being together.
im suppose to be happy shouldnt i?
but im not happy at all. i cant smile at all.
my tears just keep rolling and rolling.
making my headache worse.
someone kill me.
i dont feel like carrying on this life.
Loved 10:05 AM
went back to school today for briefing.
as usual, all the DOs and DONTs.
we were posted to a company Advent2 @ lavendar.
time really flew. im in the last year of my poly life.
and after this, its the work - till - death life.
should i be happy or not?
Loved 8:35 PM
im not understanding.
i suck at being a gf.
please forgive me
Loved 11:06 PM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
alright. haven been sleeping early since monday night.
not that i have insomnia or worries but, was addicted to the show EU :x
its been a long time since i got so addicted to a serial drama.
and so, i've asked my brother to rent the 2nd part for me tmr!
and i think i need to apologise to the usual 3. because, i slept super early in the morning, therefore, when they bombed my phone i didnt answer. :x sorry peeps.
life's been alright. school's starting on monday. i dont dread school well, actually im kinda looking forward to it.
briefing this friday. and i read wj's tp email and they say that attachment will start on 21st april. T.T gosh.
alright im off to bed. cause i've got driving tmr!
Loved 11:31 PM
i've read a blog, where she and her guy knew each other through maple too.
well, i can say its b's friend de gf.
i could say, i see lotsa difference our relationship and theirs.
both started from a virtual game known as maplestory.
however, both leads a very different kinda lovestory or rather lifestyle.
its time i should treasure b.
i believe, i've been taking things for granted.
b's treating me too well, giving me everything i want and need.
sometimes, im the selfish one.
but, the way i put it or blog it makes people thinks that its b's fault.
coming to think of it, its just me being so selfish.
after reading the little girl's blog. i asked myself a few questions :
does b go missing for a few days?
does b ignores me?
do i need to contact b den he will contact me?
and a few more.
i feel, im really the lucky girl to have b.
though our relationship is getting older and older day by day and i cannot deny that there is no tiffs, arguments and quarels. we're still holding on to it. still standing strong as one.
still loving each other as much as before.
that's more than enough.
wrestling, fighting, kicking, puching to kissing, hugging, holding hands.
im actually a very lucky girl. yes i am.
b, i love you :)
Loved 11:42 PM
maybe i dont mean that much.
really, from the way you reply and all. i can see.
well....... im sure u are surely gonna say. "See, start again.."
nvm.
we arent meant for each other at all.
look at your lifestyle and mine.
totally different.
maybe i should put down everything and start anew.
but, on the other hand, i know im not that strong to do it at all.
but, i dont wanna carry on quarelling. wtf.
i dont know why. i just feel sensitive when u are with ur friends.
sorry. i know im selfish.
in everything there's always a choice to make. either this or that.
so which have you chosen?
you cant have 2 at a time. its always like that in reality.
im tired. i needa break.
Loved 11:29 PM
from now till forever, you are my habit, needs, future and necessity in life.
i cannot afford to lose you.
from maple characters to online friends to phone-ing friends to meeting out friends to lovers.
i appreciate everything of you.
:)
jun's still or rather will always be my drug.
something that i cannot live without.
driving tomorrowwww~
please please please please please let me pass my TP on the 1st try. :(
Loved 10:17 PM
i dont mean anything at all to anyone
anyone includes.
cousinsfriendsfamily.
Loved 2:38 PM
seriously, im not being bad or evil.
but seriously. u're damn disgusting can.
you would always call me when he werent there.
and i've learnt my lesson that i wont pick up your phone anymore.
good luck ah!
he's going to taiwan already. good luck.
Loved 11:36 PM
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you I’ll never hide
Loved 1:11 PM