yes. im blogging while you're out. i feel damn down, damn sad. i dont know why. im always trying to be happy. being cheerful, trying to make friends and bf happy. but what can i always get in return? shit?

this morning, friend A was throwing temper, i dont know if it is because he hadnt had enough sleep. i didn have enough sleep too. but i wasnt throwing any temper on my friends. he pulled a fucking black face the whole day, and only in the later part he was cheering up. ya, what did i do? i tried asking what happen and why he lidat, yet he said nothing. trying my best to be always there. but what i get in return?

now, bf. he wanted to go out, i didn stop, cause i know you wouldnt like someone to control you even when you are outta your camp. so i didn say anything and i was really alright if u wanna go out and anyway, how can i stop you? when you have already decided with your friends. you went out and throw temper on me. wasnt i good enough to let you go out? what the hell did i do wrong? i know my sms abit empty, it was because im tired? if you're tired do i ever throw temper? you had had enough sleep, what about me? i slept at 3am the night before and woke up at 8.45am in the morning, why dont you try doing that? fuck. now you should be happily playing your monopoly :]


Off to baby's house!

yeps. 15 monthsary!
Happy 15 months baby.

went st james power house last night with bee, nothing much though.

lessons today were kinda boring plus the lack of sleep makes me feel sleepy.

alright. no school tomorrow! yayness :]

Yes. its going to be me and darling's 15 months in 3 days time! so excited.

im being so into pimping my mp3,hp and nitendo DS! but the crystals i see online are like so expensive. i wanna go arab street with darling to take a look at the crystals! and darling would wanna go beach road to get his army stuffs. nearby right? O.O yet darling cannot go out! because, his officers might go over to his house for endorsement! GRRRR. yes, baby's still down with chicken pox, he's already on MC for 3 weeks! hurry recover la! :[ den we can watch movies, eat nice food, go shopping! ROARS.


im so in love with darling. WHY? i also duno -.-


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some people say nothing lasts forever. however, i dont know whether to trust you when u said we will last forever. the word forever means alot. darling, will u mean when you said you will love me forever? Someone once told me, "one day you'll look back and wonder why you were ever so upset So move on, cause nothing is forever. Just accept it. Let yourself free, cause you'll find someone better." i've found the someone which is already the best. but will he leave me like how 'he' did? im so afraid my realtionship would fall like every other puppy love i've seen. Even married couples can get divorced. i plan to lead the rest of my life with you but are you planning to? seeing so many relationships fall through my 18years of life, im so so afraid this relationship will fall too like many other relationships i've seen and been through. i know i shouldnt be feeling like this cause my relationship currently is going on very smoothly, but im too bored. so i started thinking of all these. you've and is a very important person in my life.

Very Important Person Award is presented to :

Sim Yong Jun

Be it hereby recognized that the above-named person is the most important person in my life, by virtue of many demonstrated acts, among which are these:

♥Always being there when i needed you.
♥Understanding my moods and knowing my dearest desires.
♥Loving me when I'm up, down and in-between.
♥Being a source of patience, love and strength,even when I'm asking for too much.
♥Somehow always bringing out the best in me.
♥Even when taken for granted by me, continuing to provide all the needs and desires of the unpredictable wants i would like.

Thank you :]

i would like to dedicate this post to darling. so those who cannot stand goosebumps. you can stop reading here. :]



Darling, without you, my life wouldnt have been coloured. you gave me so much, made me fall in love with you so deeply till i cannot climb out of the hole i fell into. i dont wanna climb out of it, i wanna fall deeper in love with you and fall deeper into the hole. darling, i apologise for the quarall last night. like i say, i dare to 发脾气 on you is because 你太疼我 and i know no matter what you will give in to me. darling thank you :]. you told me, i 发脾气 you dont mind. really touched to hear that cause i thought you wouldnt be able to take it and everytime, without fail, you will talk to me patiently and comfort me patiently. im sorry that sometimes i cannot take jokes but darling, i'll change for you okay? i know you will read my blog de, its just a matter when. baby, im also very touched that you really would quit smoking just because of me and our future. :] darling, 每一个人都很看好我们这段恋爱，你跟我说你也很看好这段恋爱，我很感动. darling, i shared our love story now with ivy, and i told her, there's nothing else for me to pick on you and if i really pick on, its 在鸡蛋里挑骨头. you're flawless baby. completely flawless.

i love you darling. yes just this 3 simple words with alot of meaning. we have a long way to go~. 加油加油!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!

unfortunately, cant celebrate! :[

i've got no school tomorrow! wahahahas.

YES. ITS MY BIRTHDAY! and it's gonna be darling's bday real soon too! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING~

yep, im finally 18 went to register my Basic Theory today! hahas. celebrated my bday with ivy, xabryna and amelia at a fantastic steamboat restaurant at paradiz centre. :D too bad, we didnt take any photo. and the steamboat restaurant is opened by Terence Chao we saw him there, actually we wanted to take photos with him however,he left kinda early and we didnt dared stop him. hahas.

I ENJOYED MY BDAY!

and
thanks to this people to send me happy birthday smses and wishing me happy birthday too!

DARLING!
Wei Jian
Amelia
Xabryna
Ivy
Xin Yi
Carmen
Ah yi
Cherie
Alpha
Denny


there were a few more i expected from yet i didnt received from them, kinda sad tho.

and lastly! i extended my hair! :D
will post photos soon! ^^

2 MORE DAYS TILL I TURN 18! :D

yes. i've recovered partially from my sickness! i havent fall sick for such a long peroid of time finally almost recovering already.

today's the 1st day of school! everything's fine for me. except the buying of books! there seemed like there's so many books to buy. this means i have to bring them to school and means that my bag would be heavy! ROARS.

im glad darling's recovering fast yet i doubt he can join me and my friends for a dinner on my bday! :[ poor darling. and he also has to spend his bday at home! but with me la right? :]

okay. i so hate the feeling of being sick!

i cannot eat what i want.
i take very long to swallow my food.
i cannot sleep in peace.
i cannot talk long on the phone.

yes. im officially sick.
fever, flu, cough and throat infection.

darling's down with chicken pox and im over at his place taking care of him.

yesterday, went kbox with mummy and colleagues darling called me and tell me, he has pimple like stuffs all over his body but! the pimple has water after he burst them. so we suspected it was chicken pox.

yep. so darling has 1 week MC from tekong's MO but, i believe darling will need a minimum of 2 weeks to recover.

just came back from darling's place!

today's darling's 3rd book out. really glad that i can spend the whole day with him, although we did nothing much but, being able to spend the whole day just with him beside me will do. :] i need to thank my brother for letting me be able to pei darling today! thanks didi! :] saw xy and hy on the way to dinner with darling's parents.

just now i wasnt feeling quite well and i really need to thank darling for taking great care of me although its only a few hours. but, despite all my attitude and throwing temper of not wanting to drink water and eat medicine, darling still remained patient with me. i love you darling! thank you!

tomorrow's another day and darling's book in :[

i thought of having my tongue pierced, tragus re-pierced, inner conch piercing but! i dont think my mummy can accept my tongue and inner conch piercing and i dont think baby can accpet all 3 of the piercings! ROARS. crap.

really wondered what would darling's reactions be. hahas. he said he would be fine with it, but i believe he would be angry! RRROOOAARRSSS

just finish finding jay's new song for darling w/o jay talking. phew. finally found it. i know darling would love to have it. so his nice girlfriend went through everything to help him get it. hahas. i know baby would appreciate it!

tomorrow's baby's third book out! fast right. HAPPY. so excited! i think darling's feeling the same too however, he's too tired that he actually needs his sleep. hahas. less than 12 hours and i can get to see darling already! im trying very hard to make myself tired so that i can sleep throughout the night and not having to wake up in the night.



after all those thoughts, i still know who's the right one for me, who's the one i love and who's the one who love me the most. i cant give you the chance because im being too happy with him now. really too happy. and i believe he's the right one for me. sorry.

i was surfing through the net on dogs and i saw this. this little chihuahua is borned with a heart shape on its fur! it was borned lidat! cute rights?

2 more days to darling's 3rd book out.

time's kinda fast this week. maybe because i had to look after my baby cousin! he's cute but his mother has some attitude problem or rathe BIG attitude problem. thinking she's a bloody millionaire when she's not one yucks.

im missing darling so much. the feelings i had for him seemed to grow again. growing deeper and deeper, stronger and stronger thats why my whole blog has his names all over it. pardon me people. anyway, i think there isnt much people reading it because i didn announce my blog to everyone. only those on my link list knows that i actually started blogging again ! hahas.

i could actually say, i created this skin myself? and im extremely satisfied! i cant wait to let baby see what his smart gf did! and he will finally understand why his gf always says she spends 3-4hours on 1 blog skin!

cant wait to see you darling!
cant wait to spend the weekends with you!

Darling's book out is in 4days time!

finally! i can get rid of the simple skin! thanks to xin yi. its now 2.30am in the midnight and im still being so energetic because editing blog skin is so addictive! ROARS. i know its only for the time being but time's so fast when i edit. i took 2hours for me to complete this! im going to bed already or else baby's gonna kill me! >.<

and! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC! :]

300707 is our date, what's 300707 to others bee? have you ever wondered? hahas

宝贝，我们在一起已经有1 4个月了。每个人都很看好我们的这段恋爱，这段感情。宝贝我们昨晚吵架了，但我的心里一点都不开心连睡觉都不安心。我好害怕我醒来以后你就会离开我的身边，我好害怕一个人过生活，好害怕一个人自己走完我剩下的路。宝贝，我很贪心，我要你一辈子陪在我的身边，我要定你了！就像你那次对我说的。宝贝，你对我太好了，如果要故意挑你，就好像在鸡蛋里挑骨头！宝贝，我太爱太爱你了，怎么办？宝贝请你相信我，我对你的心是不会变也不会改的。宝贝我好想你, 我好期待星期六和星期天。

亲爱的，我爱你！

陈怡文 ♥ 沈永俊

I'll love you today, I'll love you tomorrow, I'll love you now and I'll love you forever.
I'll love you in good times, I'll love you in bad times, I'll love you in happy times.
I'll will take you just the way you are or anyway you choose and want to be.
Because i love you Sim Yong Jun.
Everything i did is all worthwhile darling :]

alright, tomorrow's most probably be baby's book out :]

2weeks flew so fast. confinement over. so glad that i've endured it through. baby, we have endured through the 1st confinement, we still have the 3months and the leftovers. i believe 3 months will fly too. ya?

many quaralls took place in these weeks after your enlistment. from the weird look to quaralls we had to the fun and enjoyable days. i hope we can continue to walk the rest of our lives as one. being thru all sad and good times :]

yes, im right here waiting for you, waiting for your every book out, waiting for all your calls and smses you would send :] baby, dont worry, i wont run away. there's no one else better for me to run to already. i can say, you are the bestest best guy i would ever met and i would wanna meet.
there's no more flaws for me to pick on you already. absolutely perfect. really. baby, i would like to thank you for the tears you dropped for me. at least i know that im really the girl you loved so much really :] i've been reading through the diary post that you wrote to me. i read it 5times and everytime, my tears drop without fail cause the words you wrote are way to touching. really.

baby, do you know im so anxious about going to your grandma's birthday dinner tomorrow? im so afraid i would give a bad impression you know? >.< ROARS. i cant wait to see you tomorrow darling dearest .

i love sim yong jun :]

yep. today's baby's book in and im all alone here again. ROARS.

missing him so much already :[

i love you so much.

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