i enjoy the whole of today with you darling.
loving you so much :]

thanks for everything.
i'll remember every word you said this afternoon.


SIMYONGJUNISSOMUCHOFLOVE :]

FINALLY this day has come -.- baby's book out.

cant wait to spend SUNDAY, MONDAY, TUESDAY and WEDNESDAY with him :]

YAY-ness. Tomorrow's baby's book out. so excited. wondering if i can possible sleep tonight. HAHA.

we're almost there bee (:

YES! another 3 more days to darling's book out!
im so excited and happy. really cannot wait to see baby! AHHHHHH~

Didnt update yesterday. didn have much to say cause i was spending the whole of yesterday, pratically SLEEPING -.-

at night, i received your sms girl. girl, im really shocked to have received it. i know you will read my blog. tagg okays? really hope we can go back as before, really hope we can be sisters again, really hope we could always be there for one another again. really. was really glad when u told me we'll be. :] thanks girl!

CRAP. i dont know how to decorate baby's gift. im not artistic neither am i creative enough -.- anyone help me? ROARS

COUNTING DOWN 5 DAYS TO SEEING DARLING!

nothing much to blog about today :]

6 more days to baby's book out.

STUFFS BELOW ARE COPYRIGHTED! NO COPY MEOWS PLEASE~

if love is a river, i will love an ocean,
if caring for you is sending 1 dove, i will send a thousands,
give me your hand so we'll go.
to a faraway place only you and i know,
this route and path we would take shall not have obstructions.
our LOVE doesnt need any constructions,
take me to the future,
with your hands in mine,
your hands are mine to hold forever,
i'd love to spend my lifetime with you forever.

I LOVE SIM YONG JUN.



baby,
i cannot promise a love to share forever.
i cannot promise you a smooth-sailing relationship.
but, i can promise you, i will wait for 2 years just for you and love you forever. -.-




*i know this is abit contradicting -.- sorry.

Yes! one week left to baby's book out!. :D happy happy.
although stil a long way to go, but, at least time was kinda fast today :D

went to malaysia at 10am in the morning. and back home right now :D

waiting for baby's call!

AHHHH. i love baby :D

7 DAYS~ 7 DAYS~~~

i WAS very happy today but i aint very happy at the end of today.

quaralled.
FUCK.

who was there when i really need someone to help do something?
tan si min is the only one. fuck
thanks xy for smsing me :]
where were those when i needed them to help me do something? fuck
i shoulden have been a nice person at all.
FUCK

yup 9 more days to baby's book out.

i aint feeling very happy now. i duno why, maybe its because xy said some stuffs. i dont mean to be angry but, i really feel that, keep on saying we'll break will make it come true some day. after listening to what xy said, i was kinda worried about me and jun's relationship. although baby's treating me great now but, things changes according to time.

Baby, would you leave me like how he left her?
baby, would you have another girl behind my back?
Baby, would you ever go clubbing?
Baby, would you mean what you say?
Baby, i dont want you to leave me. and like what xy say, after leaving me, you have your friends what about me? i have no one else. baby,i need you so much. im tearing right now. who knows? everyone only cares about their own stuffs.

Fuck the world .





Enough of those emo shit.

im really a darn lucky girl with sucha lucky bf who loves me so fucking much! :D
im so gonna get killed by darling if he sees my post -.- so many vulgarities used :x ROARS.
baby, i'll behave myself out here so dont worry okay? was kinda glad when u apologise me and you told me once again that you cant leave without me too.

baby, i cant wait to have and build up a family with you. having babies and living happily ever after. -.-
are we in a honeymoon peroid? or would we be like this till old? :C
baby, i love you so much.
baby, everyone's envious of us! :x
baby, faster book out D:
i wanna shop with you, buy same caps and buy our couple teeeeee~ BEEEEE~

you told me,
THE BEE NEEDS ITS HONEY ALREADY ITS DYING SOON.
hahas. you're my swwweeettteeesssttt boy i swear :D

Baby, you're like my drug.
Something that i need everyday,
whether its your voice, your touch, your smell or so,
i just need your everything baby.
you're too expensive for me to lose,
i can't afford to lose you.
without you, i would have to go through alot before i can stop being an addict to you.

Darling, you're just so addictive.


this is a copyright by ME! no copy cats please :]

I'VE GOT DARLING'S BOTAK PHOTOS!

THANK YOU ERIC! :D

anyway, this is the meimei im talking about. QIAN JING OKAY?

this reminds me of the chalet on my brother's birthday.
darling was there to attend and in the night. baby and i brought meimei to the playground. she was playing so happily. and i told darling. please make sure she doesnt falls. if she falls i dont know how to answer her dad. that little girl's her dad's PRINCESS okay. listen PRINCESS. her dad would get angry if she falls down or cries. me and baby were so busy running after her. -.- baby and i were having fun. as if we were looking after our own child, right beee? alright here are the photos of her and her little brother. :D

11days to baby's book out! happy.

many things ran through my mind.
what if the person in army is me? as in. if there's a rule that girls need to serve NS instead of guys.
will you miss me as much as i miss you now?
will i always be on your mind like 24/7 like how you are always on my mind?
will you make me not worry about you?
will you stop running out with your friends and play games?
will you have the patience to wait for the calls and smses?
will you be able to wake up at 5.30am just for 1 sms?
will you love me and wait for me?

really. so many things run through my mind. not that you dont love me now. just that, was wondering if i love you more than you love me. baby, i really want you to know how i feel right now. how much i needed you by my side now. i kept sleeping because i want time to FLY. darling FLY not PASS. really awaiting for your 1st book out. although i still dont know how many days i can accompany you. baby, i really need you right now. not that i've no friends but baby, i still feel so lonely w/o you.

woke up super early today. 10.15am -.-. i missed out darling's sms! ROARS. woke up and went to mei mei's house to collect the slimming machine. after that, we went to the temple, prayed for you darling to be safe in army. den went to the market and so baby smsed me in the noon. :D afterso, went home. did the massage and the hot blanket. spend about 1 and a half hour on the 'slimming session' bathed and went to sleep. and my STUPID SLEEP made me miss out darling's sms until darling has to call me -.-. sorry baby. your gf's job w/o you is being a PIG :x.


im missing you so much.endurance is the word.
your hands are always mine to hold :]

SIMYONGJUNISLOVE

baby said he might not be able to call me tonite. FUCK. have been waiting for so long. sigh.

who can i talk to when i needed someone to talk to? people come to me when they have problem but, when i needed someone's accompany, it seems like the people i always listen to are not there for me. WHY? fuck. i hate this kinda lonely feeling.

bee D: i want my bbbbbbbbbbeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

BABY CALLED ME! when my hopes were all gone that he couldnt call me anymore. my phone RANG-ED! and it was baby's ringtone! AHHHH happy sia. happy like FUCK. i was like. AHHHHHHH JUN CALLED ME. and i like so bad -.- pangseh xy -.- sorry my dear girl.

12 days left to baby's book out. time kinda flies? im not sure.

yesterday.
went out with eric, jiasheng, xy and another guy. idk what's his name :x. met them at orchard went to far east, taka, heerens, cine. was enjoyable, cause i think time passed very fast. and the next thing i know, darling already called me twice. :D so happy. ahhh~ thats the only time im looking forward to everyday, darling's calls and smses. :D baby called at 7 plus and 9 plus. missing baby so much! D:

last night, baby told me he cant sms me this morning, cus he has to wake up at 4.30 am. D: was kinda sadded but cause of some incident yesterday, i decided to tell baby and baby called me at 8am today. telling me sorry, he cant protect me. ahhh~ talked for awhile and baby had to go. hung the phone and went back to sleep. slept till 11am, i heard a 'TAK' sound. i woke up and see -.- i broke my stitch key chain baby bought for me! D: after awhile, baby smsed me, telling me he's free and he's going for lunch soon. i told baby i broke the key chain and he said he would buy me a new one :x . but, i told him not to waste money uh! i told baby, the world here is so scary without him to protect me and share the incident with me. he told me, he train fit fit le. come out can protect me and can carry me. HAHAS. the sweetest 2 things darling told me was, forget everything that happen but cannot forget him! and he told me not to be on a diet cause he likes me lidat! gan dong. hahas. I LOVE YOU LA. :D

i feel that, im a very lucky girl! although still missing him like crazy but. at least i know my baby loves me loads.

12 DAYS to book out.
15 DAYS to 14 MONTHS!

another 14days to baby's book out!

im feeling so much better already, not crying like fuck anymore.
was awaiting baby's sms this morning, and i didnt received i was so worried that his phone got confiscated while charging cause last night before he went to bed, he told me he want to charge his phone. i also thought of the other outcome which was, he overslept so he didnt manage to msg me. after awhile, eric msged me. i tot it was baby. -.- accompanied eric and after awhile, went back to sleep. den around 10.38am, baby msged me. i straight wake up and look for phone. so fated uh. when i open my phone, i saw many msges -.- msges from xy and baby. and i told baby, we're really fated cause xy smsed me twice or thrice i didnt even hear the phone ring. yet baby's 1 sms can wake me up from my sleep! -.- accompanied baby, he told me, he was tired. he did alot of exercise, kept running here and there. heart pain uh~ den after 15mins, he had to fall in already and he told me he thinks he can only use his phone at night! D: but nvm :D i'll wait for his call.

i cant believe jocelyn's being able to handle her emotions so well! not crying anymore, instead, trying to stay happy and occupied to not make beee worry about me! bee told me, he cant wait to see me and said, jy, lets work hard together. AHHHH~ beeeeee, yes we will work hard together! i know you will be reading my posts after your book out. :D

beee, i love you so much.

Xin Yi.
here's this little post for you. if you know a tiger's gonna bite would you still go near the tiger? no, you wont right? so why should you entertain him, he even lied saying he was at home last nite. and he already got back his phone on monday, yet he didnt even call you, he was calling another girl. you sms me. yes i know you needed someone to accompany you but, all i can do is just to listen to you and give you some advices. if you dont wanna apply or listen to my advices and other people's advices den there's no point telling you so much and go back to square one. i'll always be here, but you need to understand that his heart has already change, and you are supposed to move on in your life. do you understand it girl? i hope you can meet me and eric tomorrow if we're going out. alright? loves.

Baby's in army already. missing him so much.
not even 1 day im crying so much, dropping so much tears. i cant wait for baby's call. AHHHH.
wonder what baby's doing right now? botak already? hahas. the 2 things im looking forward to is HUGGING BABY and SEEING BABY'S BOTAK LOOK. :D

cabbed down to baby house and reached his place at 7.30am in the morning. Sat in the living room watch him nua there until about 8am, baby went to bathe and had his breakfast. we left at around 9.30am or so, cabbed down to pasir ris. D: at that point of time i was still feeling alright cause baby didnt leave my side. took a bus from pasir ris to changi and then from changi we took the boat. and there we were tekong. after we alighted, and walked a certain distance, baby had to be separated from us. that was when i missed baby but not to the extent like now. his parents and i toured around tekong. taking a look at the bunks, the swimming pool, gym, relaxing room where they have TVs and a patheticly small pool table. we had a talk and thats when i saw baby again! fucking happy i tell you. when we went in the auditorium, they were sitted in the centre and i was trying damn hard to look out for baby. and at last, his parents and i found him. he was sitting on the last second row. hahas. baby you're too small in size la! we watched a video, hear a talk, listen to the enlistees take the pledge and then the enlistees were moved out of the auditorium den i thought i couldnt see baby anymore. yet, when we moved out of the auditorium the enlistees were like prisoners i can say -.- they were standing in two straight lines waiting for their family members to pick them out. i went out. and BABY WAS SMILING TO ME! :D damn happy. we went for lunch i think it only lasted for 15mins and then i wanted to hug baby goodbye, i fucking regretted that i didnt ask him to lemme hug him goodbye. FUCK. watch baby walk to the parade ground seeing him standing under the hot sun makes my heart break. aftermath, we're separated again. baby's gone.

that was when i felt like crying. its so heart wrenching. 16 days and its baby's 1st book out!

baby, i missed you so
baby, i was so happy when i received your sms
baby, im counting down
baby, i want to hug you
baby, i cried to my didi and tell him I WANT YONG JUN
baby, when i woke up i think of you wondering what you're doing
baby, im waiting for your call
baby, I LOVE YOU

why do guys have to go to army?
army fucking breaks up relationship.
fuck.


i dont want to break down infront of baby tomorrow, i dont want him to worry for me.
i pray and i hope i wont break down.
baby, i need you so much.
lets take this as a test. dont let army spoil us. we'll overcome everything together right?

tomorrow's baby enlistment already. D: im here over at baby's place blooging.

Baby,
watching you sleep is more than enough
watching you play your games is more than enough
watching you smiling at me is more than enough

baby, i dont know why i keep having negative feelings about you entering army. i want to cry out loud that im so afraid of being all alone outside. 2 weeks baby. D:

yep. im back from baby's place!

we did soo many things today! :D im so happy baby!

im sucha lucky and happy girl! :D

its another 2 more days to enlistment.

i doubt anyone's reading it. but yah, i'll just leave my feelings here. its now 7am in the morning. i cant get back to bed. supposed to go over to his house to look for him however, he told me to go abit later. so im lying on my bed. thinking of negative things.

what if, entering army changes our relationship? if it changes to a better one i wouldnt mind but what if it changes into a terrible one? his friends told me, not to run away and they told me, jun will not change de. i've become so complacent and i keep believing what they say, and what if, the truth is that, jun changes and not me? i keep telling myself, Joce, he's going into army but not jail yet, im still worrying. i can only see him after his 2 to 3 weeks book out. do you know how long that is? absence makes the heart grow fonder? is it so true? i guess i will really miss him like fuck. 2 weeks leh. thats the minimum. i've only yet to see him at most 3 days? and i'll sure find my way to find him. WHY. why do guys have to go to NS?

maybe i should listen to eric, and take this as a test for our relationship. if we pass this test, GOOD. if we fail this test den D: . beee told me, our love will be a neverending story. i hope he meants what he says.


*beee, if u see this post or if u ever come to my blog, tag me okay? LOVE

Yep. im back to blogging. Blogger's giving so much problem! i cant seem to create my own skin and used the skin at blogskins.com. there's always error.

its another 3 more days before bee's going to get enlisted into army. September 11th. Well, i've been counting down everyday till September 11th. I've decided to blog again so i could spend some time not thinking about him after he's being enlisted.


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