my one & only

Thursday, December 25, 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!

Monday, December 22, 2008

All i want for christmas is you (:

i miss you,
and i love you.
Always have and always will.
That won't change.

Darling's back to his ~~army~~ navy life. here i am stucked at home :(
christmas is 3days away! i've prepared all the presents im supposed to get.
darling seemed so busy today. but dont know busy with what. :(
anyway, i guess darling will book out on christmas eve! so its okay.
baby told me, this is a 6week training and he will have posting again. -.-
stupid right? if he's given off after the 6weeks i wouldnt mind! hahas.
alright. off to bathe and wait for baby's call! :)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

i've been reading young mummy's blogs. although im not a mummy nor a mummy to be yet, i feel its very interesting. im being envious of being able to get married at a young age. although i know its mostly due to shotguns but, at least they know that they have their love ones with them. well, its not that i dont have my love one with me. but you know, marriage is something memorable in a life time and babies are cute arent they? :x

time for darling to book in tomorrow morning.

Friday, December 19, 2008

okay. my next aim is to get this! Koala Wallet!

I'm a happy girl!

Driving was alright today. but when warming up. car died a few times :( aint really satisfied!

my christmas present from bee! wahahahas.
i know its kinda early but, kan chiong! cant wait to exchange presents!

okay i forgot to remove the paper -.-

okay. im not trying to show off my bag. but this is the 1st bag that i bought with my own hard earned money!

well, now we're on another part of our relationship, moving on.
baby's got into Navy.
alot of travelling to be done in Navy, alot of out-of-singapore trips to make.
isit easy to handle such relationships?
anyone's bf has or had been in navy?

its time i should be more independent
its time i should start to not stick to baby so much anymore.

i hope baby's navy life and our relationship will be smooth sailing (:

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

i've finished reading Twilight and watched the movie twilight already.
The story book of course was much better as it was more detailed but, being able to see edward cullen in the movie makes the movie SUPERB! hahas. i've bought new moon. went to 2 populars and they were out of stock! and my brother bought it for me and he says its my x'mas present! hahas. :]

okay. outing with friends tmr! ^^

Monday, December 15, 2008

ohkay. im so bored. my stupid bf is still sleeping!

okay, xmas is coming soon. in 10 days.
baby's posting will be out in a few days time.
really hope he will be posted to somewhere relaxing.
more importantly, somewhere with a higher pay! :x
im still thinking of a plan how to get the burberry bag into my house! >.< LOL.
i think my parents will start nagging at how i anyhow spend money.

meeting baby tomorrow,
out with ivy,ahchoo & nby on wed.
meeting darling on thurs
Driving and meeting baby on fri.
working on saturday.
sunday no plans yet!

:]

Sunday, December 14, 2008

YES! finally. i bought my burberry bag! but, its still at darling's place . ROARS.
i can only collect it on x'mas!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

im SICK again. :(

Friday, December 12, 2008

Enough of studying.
im prepared to fail marketing.
memorising sucks. i've given up!

2nd driving lesson later! wahahahs.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

mummy says she will send me overseas to study if i dont do well.
can i not go? sigh.

overseas relationship isnt easy to maintain.
i know you people must be thinking, everything i do always think of my bf. you must be wondering how much he meant to me.

EVERYTHING.
Sim Yong Jun means EVERYTHING TO ME.

i dun wanna go overseas. hais.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

life's been good for me except those quaralls and little misunderstandings.
i've read one of my friends blog and i realised whatever she wrote is true and right.
only bfs are the one and only there for us, if my bf leaves me i believe i will fall like she did.
well, i've lost a good and true friend but i believe things are slowly getting back between me and her. i dont know if u read my blog so yah.

there are many things running through my mind.
im so afraid darling and i will end up walking different ways.
i know we are living in different worlds? i believe although i know you have changed and wont lead ur night life anymore, willing to quit smoking just for me. thank you baby.
is maintaining a relationship that easy?
is our relationship still a growing one or we have already matured it?
im so afraid that we are still in the honeymoon period, when we get out of it, how will life be for me and you?
we've been through most ups and downs. army is one good example.
2weeks confinement to the 3months BMT. glad we've been through it.
well, everything's fate.
can people control fate or is fate meant to be already controlled by god?
if we can control it, i really hope, i can live as long as i can with baby.
last as long as i can with baby.

baby, i really love you.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

i wouldnt mind having a vampire bf whom is as charming as edward cullen! :x
sorry bee :x

CRAP. i cannot wait to watch the movie! im so tempted to watch it online but NO! i will die die wait for December 18. Hahas. i'll make sure darling will go with me! and most importantly, EDWARD CULLEN IS SO HANDSOME CAN! :x he's on my lappy's wallpaper, simple to say, replacing baby. :x really. i cant wait to finish reading twilight and buy the whole series! and im so gonna complete them! wahahahas.

Monday, December 8, 2008

i might be flying off to hongkong during xmas :[ which means, i cant celebrate xmas with baby.
shall see how things go.

tomorrow's baby's POP. :]
long off for him! ^^

Saturday, December 6, 2008

have you ever thought of watching the sun rise and sun set with me?
have you ever thought of buying me roses?
have you ever thought of giving me surprises?
have you ever thought of getting me a necklace?
have you ever thought how important i am to you?
have you ever thought that you can speak to my mum and assure u will take good care of me?
have you ever thought how i felt when you're out with ur friends?
have you ever thought how it feels like being alone?
have you ever thought how i feel whenever you comment on small things which i love to do?
have you ever thought of picking me up at my doorstep even before i tell you im leaving house to ur place?
have you ever thought of really giving me happiness for now and for the future?
have you ever thought of starting to save now for our future?
have you ever thought of how much i needed you?
have you ever thought how nice am i to you?
have you ever thought of treasuring me?
have you ever thought of giving me the best?
have you ever thought of appreciating me for all the things i've done?
have you ever thought how i bear with you when u do stupid things?
have you ever thought i might have enough of you?
have you ever thought that im not that strong at all?
have you ever thought that whatever i say and whatever my heart feels is always different?
have you ever thought what if i could go out till late and ton outside?
have you ever really gave me everything that i wanted?

have you ever thought that i would leave you someday?

im not that important i guess.

1.The person who tag/pass you:
Erica Loh

2.Your relationship with him/her:
Dearest cousin

3.Your three impression of him/her:
Pretty, easy to clique with, fun and loving :]

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
cant rmb? O.O cousins for 17 years leh.

5.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
something like, she'll always be there? O.O cant rmb uhs.

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
never tot of it -.-

7.If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
O.O

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will:
impossible. my cousin leh!

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
the thing is, its impossible so how can there be a reason?

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
find her a bf :x so that i can have a brother in law! hahas.

11.Your overall impression of him/her is:
Miss Vain port.

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?:
fat? short?

13.The characters you love of yourself are:
nothing? lols

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
hot tempered, no patience

15.The most ideal person you want to be is:
O.O

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them:
thanks for the care and concerns? LOL

how long more can this last?
why?
best bf?

hahas.

its not easy being me you know?
despite all the waiting. i've get nothing in return.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Yes, i've got a fucking attituded father. im very pissed by his actions.

firstly, i know its my fault for coming home so late, u gave me a call and i talked to u nicely and you fucking hang my phone and that's what it makes me so angry.

secondly, im big enough, and i believe im very guai. coming home by 10pm at the age of 18 is very rarely seen wtf more do you want? you have no fucking say in my life. have you ever given me a fucking cent? its all from mummy's pocket.

thirdly, stop trying to be sacarstic la fucker. if u ever dare fucking whack me, im going to leave the house. so stop trying to be unreasonable to me.

okay. i've rant out everything i wanted and these are the words i told him without the fucks. :] how i wish mummy will divorce you, this useless fucking person.

fuck off from my world JASON TAN CHENG SOON.

alright. enough. darling hasnt called. i bet he's surely enjoying his recruit night in home clothes! hahas. 2days to darling's book out! yayness.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

its been a long time since i blogged.

3 more days to darling's book out.
i AM very no life. everyday except weekends are always countdowns. however, thats not going to happen for next week! because its darling's POP! :]

im over and done with my BTT, FTT's in January, Practical driving lessons this friday! yes, im super duper wuber excited -.- but! im afraid my car will die every now and then -.-. yeah, my instructor's my cousin's instructor who thought my cousin and my cousin passed okay! 1 attempt for TP, FTT and BTT. pressurized -.- i cant wait to have my license and i'll probably save $40 a week from cabbing to and from baby's place. HAHA.