you ask me to trust you.sometimes i doubt myself. i dont know if i really do trust you as much as i trust him.maybe the scars he left me is still here.
ya, scars, shouldn't it be there forever unless you laser it off or apply somethings to it?i've seen and heard many relationships, 5 years, 6years all going down the drain.so what's ours gonna be?the world is revolving, the world changes, things changes, people changes.will you change? im sure you will.its either for the better or for the worst.i know you have already changed to a better guy for me.
yep, im not complaining that you are no good for me, just that, i still doubt us.will you leave me like how he did?i wont know, you wont know, no one knows.was talking to mummy, she told me.
"girl, not mummy dont wanna treat yongjun as well as i treated renjian, mummy is very afraid u will be hurt like last time you know? mummy just want to make sure he's the right guy for you before mummy will teng him like how i teng renjian."
"your future is what you decide, mummy cant decide it for you. if you've chosen him, mummy cant object but what i can do is to make sure he's the right one here for you. so that mummy can hand you over to him without any worrys."
im very touch. really touched that my mum actually cares so much about me.
thanks mummy.
i will be strong to whatever it happens to this relationship.
i wouldnt be as stupid as before to commit suicide.
im always standing so strong infront of my friends, so why not stand strong in this relationship?
im proud of myself.
very. (:
from the very reliable jocelyn, to the independent girl.
trying to pick up doing things on her own.
shopping, getting stuffs, going home, run errands and all.
i noticed i've grown up. i really do.
and this is the 1st time im saying,
i love myself !