Tuesday, September 9, 2008
its another 2 more days to enlistment.
i doubt anyone's reading it. but yah, i'll just leave my feelings here. its now 7am in the morning. i cant get back to bed. supposed to go over to his house to look for him however, he told me to go abit later. so im lying on my bed. thinking of negative things.
what if, entering army changes our relationship? if it changes to a better one i wouldnt mind but what if it changes into a terrible one? his friends told me, not to run away and they told me, jun will not change de. i've become so complacent and i keep believing what they say, and what if, the truth is that, jun changes and not me? i keep telling myself, Joce, he's going into army but not jail yet, im still worrying. i can only see him after his 2 to 3 weeks book out. do you know how long that is? absence makes the heart grow fonder? is it so true? i guess i will really miss him like fuck. 2 weeks leh. thats the minimum. i've only yet to see him at most 3 days? and i'll sure find my way to find him. WHY. why do guys have to go to NS?
maybe i should listen to eric, and take this as a test for our relationship. if we pass this test, GOOD. if we fail this test den D: . beee told me, our love will be a neverending story. i hope he meants what he says.
*beee, if u see this post or if u ever come to my blog, tag me okay? LOVE